WORD to your mother on that quote. I’ve been pretty sick the past few days, the kind where I’m doctor ordered to lay around my apartment and take different meds to get better (F you tonsils), which is NOT the best way to start off my Summer but during my breaks from watching “LOST” on hulu, it did give me time to realize some things. I have been DWELLING on all of this crap that I cannot control and it has been driving me crazy. But then I started to make peace with some heavy things in my life and got rid of some of these burdens that have been holding me down, some for up to 8 years (yeah, crazy). WHY didn’t I do this earlier?? I also realized I was once again getting myself all upset over a guy who isn’t worth it and that I’ve been holding onto feelings that were never genuinely there. So I told myself to just let it go and whaddya know? Gone. I am emancipating myself from my own mental slavery. I am freeing myself from these problems that shouldn’t have a place in my life. And I feel like this ginormous weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. This is supposed to be my Summer. My last Summer before I graduate college which technically (in my head) means my last Summer to be somewhat reckless and do whatever the hell I want to do before I have to actually become a productive part of society once I get that piece of paper I’ve been working at getting for 4+ years. ANYWAYS, this means I’m ready to finally free myself from all of the bullshit that I usually allow to weigh myself down. I want to start living my life for me and not for everyone else. I want to do what I want, go where I want, be with who I want. I want to actually stop and smell the fucking roses for once. I’m 22 years old (well, in July, but whatever it’s close enough) and I live in Chicago. I need to take full advantage of this situation before it’s gone because God knows where I’ll be once I graduate if I even have a job when I graduate (SOMEONE HIRE ME!). I am so pumped to enjoy the next few months and live my life to the fullest. And to stop thinking about people and things that make me unhappy and waste my time. So let’s do the damn thing! I’m going to make new choices for myself, healthier ones. I’m going to actually do the things I say I’m going to do and I’m going to make this Summer my bitch…(did I say “healthy”?) Summer 2010…I have a good feeling about this one.
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…You won’t regret it!
feeling free is the best……have a great summer and by the way….love the picture….daisy’s are my favorite flower.
numero uno? I like the quote you chose.
numero… two? I’m glad you’re figuring out how to let stuff go. People that let stuff hold them down end up bringing everyone else down, too.
What’s crazy is compared to some of the older people I know in this world that can’t release those bad things, 8 years doesn’t seem that long. but it is! It’s crazy-long.